"Winds Of Change."

Lovelies, I'm ready ... Let's do this. I'm not going to sugarcoat, I'm going to let loose. Thankfully I can without fear of any judgment.

Well, it's over with Jack. I ended it. I'm sure you're all surprised, but since I haven't been posting as much as usual or as much as I wish I could, let's rewind time. Our relationship had recently shifted out of the "Honeymoon Phase", which means everything was starting to get real between us. We were a real thing, a thing that would face struggles and overcome the odds if fate were to concur.

Once I was emotionally ready to remove the blindfold, I saw everything for what it really was. Do I love Jack? Abso-freaking-lutely. However, I saw that we're two completely different people hunting for two completely different things out of a relationship. I know he loves me, but we aren't meant to be. The signs are clear and I won't pretend.

After I had realized that, after I was officially emotionally battered, I did draw a conclusion. It wasn't fair to him I couldn't offer everything that he wanted, and his expectations were reasonable, but I didn't fit the part.

I won't get all specific, I won't disclose what's private, but I'm quite positive you all can infer the scenario ... Regardless the gigantic knot, and the affliction which consumed who I was, I had still telephoned Jack and I completely confronted him about everything. I broke his heart, and all for the hopes I could protect mine. Honestly, I was a total wreck, but now I'm numb.

Graciously, I had a few comforting and supportive friends, who generously befriended me throughout the whole thing ... And I love them.

Had I truly tried? Did I sabotage and wreck our whole relationship? Thankfully, those comforting/supportive friends had eased the troubles I was experiencing about everything, reassuring I truly did the right thing, and especially for me, who I'm constantly informed I never quite consider. I enjoy pleasing, not wounding. I was scorn, and consumed with the guilt of yet again, another's crippled heart.

Searchers, commence and continue listenin' to your heart! Relax, and remember you're human. It's tough, but it's what's truly right for everyone, and otherwise who knows. However, there's one thing worse than those feelings of loneliness alone: Those exact feelings of loneliness, while being with somebody else.