"A Beautiful Lie."

While I lay right here, reminiscing everything that I've done and has transpired, I'm drawn to the conclusion that my newfangled relationship with a South Korean guy Michael, is simply a beautiful lie. How could you approach breaking up with the man you love because they completely neglect to prove their love back? There isn't one; It's definitely one shitty situation.

There are over nineteen million peeps within the state of New York. Still, there are times where a gal feels alone and shipwrecked, even when a resourceful survivor sticks a message in a bottle or on an answering machine. It has taken quite a while for myself to recognize I crave a meaningful commitment, a truthful relationship after everything in the past, yet all I get are these quick calls, these rushed conversations. Are all these technological improvements helping us communicate? In the matters of love, don't actions speak louder than all the words?

Maybe I embraced this relationship so I'd have emotional crutches ... Maybe I got lost in what had appeared to be a Safe Haven from all the daily struggles I do contend with, to the point where I failed to notice the reality; I was a tiny drop of water in the ocean, I didn't shore a wave of uncontrollable emotions. These quick calls, the rushed conversations ~ Are those to show for his uncaring demeanor? Or our bland/ordinary visits lacking any and all spice and spark ... Where you'd think we're friends? It's cruel. It's false hope. It's simply a beautiful lie; The exact lie I perpetuate whenever I enter a new relationship with a "promising" man.

Lovelies, whenever you see yourself in a comparable position there are procedures you could use to possibly benefit the relationship and revive it. Confront the individual, lay everything out. Converse. I cannot promise you'll become 'When Harry Met Sally', 'cause who knows ... But, it'll definitely make a difference. Secondly, begin brewing plans, tweak communication skills and enhance the physical relationship. DON'T take on all of the reincarnation techniques by yourself. A relationship embodies equal consideration and equal contribution. If those opportunities simply don't substantiate any beneficial switch in the relationship, it could be time to contend with splitting.

Regardless, Searchers, I completely understand how these situations truly blow; I guess along the tunnel, this's a detour ... A detour to the light at the end of it. If we are capable of mastering a stick-shift through this tunnel, could a successful relationship be that far behind?

"Little House On The Prairie."

As these thoughts trot along the meadow of the mind, a graceful background tune delighting the surrounding air; I pause on an instinct ... There I was, gracing the front of the 'Little House On The Prairie'...
...The contents are seemingly flawless; The irreproachable marriage, well-mannered children. Everything you want. Did I mention I was having a flashback to a television program from the 70's? Let's be realistic Endless Searchers. Modern love is anything but.

What I'm getting at here, simply put is that everyone's got a specific ideal for a relationship. Peeps are caught inspecting the grass of another, all in attempt to get the one-up. "The grass is always greener"; quite the hoax. We'd be a lot better off if we weren't so fooled by the glamour of a particular relationship ... Instead, focusing on communication, faith, feelings, hope and trust. The fate of the love, not the expense.

What if the "perfect relationship" is a myth?

Maybe we've got it wrong; Maybe the "perfect relationship" embodies equal imperfection with the man you love ... "Perfection's" quite a tricky figure. But, it's not impossible. It's a question for expectations, standards. You'd get bored from the culturally-relevant definition of "perfection", 'cause there'd be absolutely no room to grow and learn via mistakes, etc. Maybe you and your partner aren't yet married, and there's a relatively strict "children AFTER nuptials" family policy for him; and you two decide to send his mom a "World's Greatest Grandmother" mug to prove a point, or to crack a laugh at her expense - How great would that be?

You can't put a tag on the moments where you wish you could pause the clock Endless Searchers ... They're what it's all about. So, prior to desiring a night out where you can throw about a wad of Franklin's with a man who wouldn't be hurting you in the least if he were to walk out of your life, except ceasing credit for materials; Reflect ... Think about the timeless moments in bed with a man who completes you. Somebody, who an oblique thought of losing makes your heart drop, 'cause a life free of them seems like a life that's not free at all...