"A Beautiful Lie."

While I lay right here, reminiscing everything that I've done and has transpired, I'm drawn to the conclusion that my newfangled relationship with a South Korean guy Michael, is simply a beautiful lie. How could you approach breaking up with the man you love because they completely neglect to prove their love back? There isn't one; It's definitely one shitty situation.

There are over nineteen million peeps within the state of New York. Still, there are times where a gal feels alone and shipwrecked, even when a resourceful survivor sticks a message in a bottle or on an answering machine. It has taken quite a while for myself to recognize I crave a meaningful commitment, a truthful relationship after everything in the past, yet all I get are these quick calls, these rushed conversations. Are all these technological improvements helping us communicate? In the matters of love, don't actions speak louder than all the words?

Maybe I embraced this relationship so I'd have emotional crutches ... Maybe I got lost in what had appeared to be a Safe Haven from all the daily struggles I do contend with, to the point where I failed to notice the reality; I was a tiny drop of water in the ocean, I didn't shore a wave of uncontrollable emotions. These quick calls, the rushed conversations ~ Are those to show for his uncaring demeanor? Or our bland/ordinary visits lacking any and all spice and spark ... Where you'd think we're friends? It's cruel. It's false hope. It's simply a beautiful lie; The exact lie I perpetuate whenever I enter a new relationship with a "promising" man.

Lovelies, whenever you see yourself in a comparable position there are procedures you could use to possibly benefit the relationship and revive it. Confront the individual, lay everything out. Converse. I cannot promise you'll become 'When Harry Met Sally', 'cause who knows ... But, it'll definitely make a difference. Secondly, begin brewing plans, tweak communication skills and enhance the physical relationship. DON'T take on all of the reincarnation techniques by yourself. A relationship embodies equal consideration and equal contribution. If those opportunities simply don't substantiate any beneficial switch in the relationship, it could be time to contend with splitting.

Regardless, Searchers, I completely understand how these situations truly blow; I guess along the tunnel, this's a detour ... A detour to the light at the end of it. If we are capable of mastering a stick-shift through this tunnel, could a successful relationship be that far behind?